| | Good lord! It's only the second day of the week. I feel like I have to wait all my life to reach that Friday ahead of me. Been a long time since I updated this blog. Jeezwiz...I have so much work.
For the past week or so, I feel absolutely like I am on a ride to the moon. Little did I know, I find myself counseling others about their feelings...dreams..and whatnot....I fall underneath the same roof. I have students coming in crying, an old boss whose wive pasted away after 40 years of marriage due to Myeloma (disease in which I see and feel the pain for), parents who criedv b/c they can no longer afford college for their child, etc.
What do I face?...I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be in that position. As I counsel and try to make their soul at ease...I feel so depressed myself, I feel hopeless...I asks myself how do I get through this...somehow I manage to just get it past the stage where I would drop my tears on my desk as I starred straight into their face knowing that I could not do much. I can only say with all my encouragement that things will be ok. But then who am I to tell them that everything will be ok....I, myself, have no clue as to what I can do to improve myself.
My boss tells me that I am good at counseling. I often tell him that I am not an expert, I am only a child who have grew to be an adult with limited knowledges in the most recent year. He'd encouraged me to become something more...something...in which will help others. I can not help others if I am lost in my own world. Surprisingly, I am that girl...that girl...who is supposed to find magic solutions to cure others....this was the impression I had given to my past grade school teachers...who had their mind set that I was the one who have achieved so much..only to find out at the end that I have nothing accomplished. Of course, I am content with life, but is being content enough? What about my dreams? What about my goals? What about myself? Do I always have to please other before me? I am a strong believer that if you only try, anything can be achieve. We can only hope that one day, our dreams is not far from where we are. That hope is the hope that we longed for...
Pictures time....
Amit's 25th B-day!! yeaaaa join the beautiful stage..you are finally a quarter of a century old.......
The group at Cheesecake Factory! Look at my food....yummmmmmmm..Tim~why do you look so pale like a shrimp...hahaha jk.
Don't asks me why I am in a beautiful red jacket...just came out of work...muahhhahaha...only if you see my shoes...
MARK'S 25th B-day....Where is Mark...wait...hahaha I have to update pix from my camera....but enjoy yourself with a pix of Bo, Hanna and I partying it up for Mark..soooo HOT!!! good thing nobody got the bottom part of my dress...HOT HOT HOT! Hanna...told you to get the dress....HOT!
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| | Posted 5/20/2008 2:37 PM - 132 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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